Inspiration

Everyone wants me to be the perfect person

But every day my situation seems to worsen

Things turn good for a little while

Then something goes wrong and we end up hostile

The real me is hidden behind

A thick iron shield so if you want to find

The real me climb inside and tighten your seatbelt

Your in for a bumpy roller coaster ride

We will twist and turn

We will do flips and turns

From the countless mistakes and harsh words in turn

Rattled and shaken is this path we have taken

I am so sick and tired

Of feeling useless and following wires

This rats nest is impossible and has no end

I can’t find a trend which way do I go?

Get off get off when we stop

Escape this big giant mistake

Get out get out just leave me behind

Quit on me like everyone else does I won’t mind

But all along while I’m shakun

The person that’s there for me

No matter the problem or question

With amazing advice and contemplation

Lindsay thanks babe I love you

Always there with the best advice and the truth

-Brett Scornfield<3

he is my best friend

and i think it's kind of a big deal.

well guys i think it's time for me to say summer is comming to an end.

and today i finally GOT A JOB!

COLD STONE

!!((but please dont come in and make me sing))!!

well what's new.

MY HAIR CHANGED AGAIN!

... yeah it's red again.

only its a normal red not purple red.

i went to NEWYORK NEWYORK

it was wonderful.

there are changes

i have some new friends.

i lost someone for them though. but i guess thats what it always comes down to, loosing someone you never thought you could loose.

i also went to arkansas. where i spent the night with my favorite uncles house.

WHICH IS ADORABLE.

and he is my favorite b/c we stayed up untill 3:30 talking!

and i got to drive part of the way.. 2 hours in pouring rain. beautiful.

i talked to him online. i think it went pretty well....

READ THIS!!!!!!!!

H0pelessR0mance6: you messed up

XXoverblastXx: ok i know i did im sorry i dont know wht lese you want me to do

H0pelessR0mance6: you wanna do sometihng tell every girls you ever get with that your first relationship lasted one year and it ended b/c you were controlling and mnipulating and verball abusive

XXoverblastXx: can i not just put this behind me ive changed

H0pelessR0mance6: you better hope so

XXoverblastXx: i did and im sorry for what ive done

H0pelessR0mance6: ill never be able to look at you the same, and know what it doesnt matter! b/c i dont need to, i have a wonderful person who i care about like crazy and i know whatever problem i face i can go to him with and i have complete trust in him and faith in our relationship, and can honestly say i love him, and i hope you never get the chance to have that!

XXoverblastXx: im happy for you

H0pelessR0mance6: and i also really hope someday i get the chance to just beat teh shit out of you and let ever last drop of anger out on your sorry ass b/c i hate you! and i want nothing else to do with you

XXoverblastXx: then have nothing else to do with me im sorry

XXoverblastXx: just please dont let my mistakes bring you down you can be happy so do it

H0pelessR0mance6: oh trust me i'

H0pelessR0mance6: m way past taht

XXoverblastXx: ok good

H0pelessR0mance6: k bye that was the end

H0pelessR0mance6: you can stop talkign to me now

*appluse*

beautiful stranger

how i came to see

how perfect sight

life being so free would be

no leash and colar

i can breath on my own

i'm my own person

and no distractions

for the future as it leads

i'm free dear father i am free.

good night lovely kids.

Love,

         me

I STILL WANT

 THAT TRUCK!!!!!

wow kids is definatly

SUMMER

and i don't have a freakin clue what to do with myself! THERE IS NOTHING TO DO! well whats new?? my mom is downstairs cleaning the house singing? thats cute!

BRETTS BIRTHDAY IS NEXT WENSDAY!!!! lets get a little excited! i think so!

I STARTED LISTENING TO COUNTRY MUSIC AGAIN!

I've gone to sixflags twice this summer so far.

this is my girlfriend :)

luv bug is my boyfriend. i like him alot. we are special together. and kind of crazy. and pretty much best friends. amazing please! Montana<3

today some family friends come in town. they are going to eat dinner with us. It's really nothing special.

I STILL WANT A TRUCK!

and i got a cowgirl hat... love it!

okkayy idk what else to write.

PEACE

LOVE FOR SUMMER TIME

and it may rain today :)

hmm i think i'm gonna go ahead and update this deal more often since my myspace now i can't access b/c my computer is RETARTED!

well today was kind of strange. i got a weird vibe. blah. i think someone is mad at me that i dont want to be mad at me. we also had tax.. GAY. me and hannah were gonna go jogging but i have guitar lessons tonight at like 6 so ek idk how well that will work out. we went last night haha some kids asked for our number out on the track.

hmm me and ryan are getting closer wow love for siblings!

my craving...

i want to watch the stars

hmm it looks like its gonna RAIN RAIN RAIN

wow the worker at our house his phone just rang.. concidence really good song on his ring tone just rang really lous.. Jesus take the wheel.

i found some rocks layed out like that this weekend. hmm i love our God. .. don't even begin to call me a nerd.

K leave some love.

beccaaaaaaaaa is awesome:)

friends=CRAZY. wow yall are cuties.

slides are awesome

SHADOWS

hotties on a log!

I WANT A TRUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wow well long time no writing... ONCE AGAIN! well hmm whats new with me.

well me and montana are still together and we couldn't be better. i haven't seen him all weekend because i've been away at retreat wow it was one amazing weekend. and i miss him sooo much. he gets home from his lake house in a few minutes. IM SO EXCITED. i think i'm going to go take a visit to him and wrap my arms around him and kiss him and want to cry. wow one weekend and i'm missing him.. is that sad? haha well anyways i did have one amazing weeekend though. I went to retreat for bbyo... maybe someone of yall will scroll back to last year my enrty after retreat and i was in tears because i missed being there and i had such an amazing time. this year there were less girls... 15 of us to be exact. i got to become close with every one of them. someone ive come to truely love is becca. wow that girl i ahve to say has to be the most original person in the world.  she truely could be my idol because she is nothing but herself.. her little canadian self.. which i love! we made a tent again this year. yay. i talked to steph till like 3 AM on sat night. i also talked to barbara alot this weekend. wow she is still her wounderful self i miss having as that really amazign friend.. i see it coming back really fast betweeen us. we got alot of catching up. wow i appoligize for not being active.. i felt a little guilty being there  and not being fully honest.. i'm not jewish. though i love all those girls i do have that factor diffrent from them. i go to church i listen i read the bible and i know daniel beau was searching for jesus the whole time we were there haha but i just keept telling him he isnt hard to find.. and i know that from experience. i was speeking honestly.. wow guess thats just a little confession to all those girls. well if you wanna check out the pictures from this weekend go for it at

www.picturetrail.com/jz2006hotties

alot of those pictures were my artistic love comming out wow there are some good pictures in there! LOVE IT!

umm I MISS MY BESTESSSSS!!!!!!!!!!

oh yes did i menction there is no longer a 4... again... ah long story.. and its not mine to tell so then end.

well my house is getting redone and it is looking beautiful but BOY OH BOY IS IT DUSTY!

hmm i think alot of people saw a "wild" side of me this weekend one they never knew about heheh. 

<3333333 lindsay

i'm guessin this thing could use a little updatin... just to make me happy.

well i guess the past is just the past and we had a tough road behind us but now we have everything infront of us and only love to keep us going.

monty+lindsay=only smiles

and did i tell you we have a 4. yes 4. justin jackie lindsay montana.. seems like a perfect four.

                                               =4

and did i tell you i found God. And did i tell you how much i love him so deeply. I've been going to church lately .. and i'm inlove with God and Crist and wow everything about what i have found in this happieness. thank you jackie.

so i need to work out alot.. b/c i havent in a while.

and also news update.. I HAVE RED HAIR..

and my mom is growling at my dog?? okay right mom?

yeah so i'm happy with all of my woundeful friends.. I LOVE YOU ALL THANK YOU FOR BEING HERE FOR ME!

BRETT YOU ARE JUST MAZIN.. wow bffs for srue and for evaaaa X's!

KISSESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSASLDJGL:AS

love love love you all!

thank you God for sending me such a wonderful life once again:)

Love always, 

       little red head, little one, little lindz, lindsay love, and just lindsay:)